Seize The Moments...

I've learned that this mantra is one I need to live by at this stage of the game.

It's been quiet and relatively calm over the last few days. Transportation has been on time for the most part, dialysis has gone well and the wound nurse has come for more than 1 visit.

John has been more alert, eating more and actually talking with everyone in the house these past few days. These moments are few and far between and they serve as a reminder to me of the life we used to have together. He's looked more like himself and acted more like himself in the past 2 days than I've seen in a long while. I've tried to enjoy these moments and make sure that he gets the most out of them as well. He's still on the antibiotic for the pressure wounds on his heel and I've picked up the debriding ointment from the pharmacy. The wound nurse will start using this ointment on tomorrow during her visit. It should allow the wound to heal a little more quickly.

I finally got his blood glucose testing supplies in the mail on Thursday. Tomorrow will bring the delivery of the diapers. Good thing, we're getting short on them.

So this past week has been one of calm, take a deep breath and relax for a moment. Remembering our relationship as it was has some good and bad elements. I miss what we had, yet appreciate that we are still here and I still have him with me. For how long, I don't know. But I must enjoy this time for however long it is.

So I take a cleansing breath and brace myself for the next "issue" that will come along. And it will come. But for now, I smile, I laugh, I hug him and I tell him I love him and he actually said, "I love you back". I haven't heard that in a long, long time. It felt good. Sometimes God gives you just what you need exactly when you need it.

Thanks, God.